Second Family..............'FRIENDS'

kaafi dino se soch rhi thi ki kuch update kru..but socha nai tha ki aisa kuch update krungi....... aisa mere sath pehli baar hua ki mujhe samajh nai aaya ki main jyada khush hu ya jyada sad......don't know how to react......har insaan ki 2 duniya hoti hai...ek wo jismain hum apni family ke sath rehte hai..........aur dusri wo duniya jismain hum anjaan logo ko bhi apni lyf ka hissa bna lete hai.....jinke sath hum haste hai,rote hai..apni wo baatein bhi share krte hai jo hum apni family ke sath nai kr skte...apna mann halka krte hai hum unke sath...aur bevcufo ki tarah haste rehte hai...itni understanding ho jaati hai ki ishare bhi samajh aane lgte hai....kitna kuch share karte hai...kitne e moments hote hai unke sath..jinhe hum kabhi explain nai kr skte bs use jeete hai....is duniya main aise anjaan log hote hai jinhe hum pehle kabhi nai jante but yahi anjaan log kab anjan se ek apke dost bn jaate hai ..aur apke dil ke itne kareeb ho jate hai ki hamari saari duniya unme hi simat kr reh jaati hai......aur kisi mod pe aa kr humain alag hona hi hota hai......well isse jyada main kya kahu....ye to bs kuch hissa hai meri feelings ka..isse jyada main aj nai likh skti....

31st July....THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE..

On this day..i lost my dad....a whole year has passed by since he left us...I am still going through the pain of losing him...

I miss u dad....A year has passed..I'll never forget d day..my brother rang me to tell me that you had gone away. The hurt is the same...some days the pain is stronger....i love you dad....missing u so badly....i wish..one day i'll see u again.....without u i m so alone dad......

love u papa................

Life must go on....

hii!! today i want to share my drmzz...my feelings....i hav posted before that in my lyf there are many problems....but i never stop dreaming....many people use to give up their drmzz when they face problem in their lyf......but u can't count me in these type of guys....as i posted earlier that i lost my dad....but yet i love to see drmzz....i want to live those drmzz....i always use to keep smiling....nd still i use to live my lyf as before....
mujhe bhut se log kehte hai ki mujhe apne dad ke jaane se koi farak nai pdta.....kyuki mein apni lyf pehle jaise hi jee rhi hu....but unhe mein kaise samjhau ki mein kya mehsus krti hu.....mujhe bhi takleef hoti hai..aap khud socho mujhe kaisa feel hota hoga jab sham ko mein gate open krte waqt ye sochti hu papa a gye..but unki jagah roj mera bhai hota hai....jaha mein roj papa ke sath kitchen mein new new dishes try krti thi....pr ab wahi dishes mein akeli bnati hu.....jab mummy mujhe dant te the wo mujhe bachate the....har sunday ko wo hamare sath subh subh chai(tea) peete the sirf hamara sath dene ke liye..vaise unhe chai(tea) bilkul psand nai thi.....aur bhi bhut si batein hai...roj raat ko sath mein dinner krna.....unka humein  hasate rehna....mummy papa ki pyaar wali fight mein mera papa ki side lena.....sb kuch.....but unke jaane se ye choti choti khushiyan bhi chali gyi....reh gya to bs ek ajeeb sa sunapan........pehle jab kbhi mom dad out of station jaate the...mera brother mere sath rehta tha..me ,my brother nd my darling frnd preeti...hum bhut masti krte the...but ab mujhe bhut ajeeb lgta hai ghr pe akele rehna...kyuki ab mom ke sath ravi(my brother) out of station jaata hai.....aur mein akeli ghr pe reh jaati hu......bhut akelapan sa lgta hai mujhe....preeti(my frnd) mere sath rehti hai..hum abhi bhi bhut masti krte hai...pr kahi na kahi mere dil mein wo akelapan sa rehta hai....ab ye sb cheeje mein un logo ko kaise samjhau.....kya rone se....ya hamesha chup rehne se..mere dad vapis a jayenge....nahi na....fir wo log kyu nai samajhte....agr mein hi roti rhungi to mere mom ..mera bhai....kya sambhalenge khud ko..hum teeno ab ek dusre ke liye hi to khush rehte hai....wo kehte hai na is duniya mein apne liye koi nai jeeta ..har koi apno ke liye jeeta hai.....ye sab bhi to dad ka hi seekhaya hua hai...ki lyf mein kuch bhi ho jaye..jeena mat chodo.....aj nai to kal har kisi ko jana hai...pr koi jeena to nai chod deta....aur mere jaise log to bilkul nai ...mere dad chahte the mein hmesha khush rhu....to mein unhi ka to sapna pura kr rhi hu....agr wo hote to mera hr ek  drm pura krte...agar mein ab wo drmzz khud pure kr rhi hu..to wats the big deal yar....mera ye msg un logo ke liye hai jo ye sochte hai ki kisi ke jaane ke baad humein apne sapne...apni khwahishein  chod deni chahiye...but y....??

Zindagi......

Hanste hanste kat jaaye raaste, 
zindegi yunhee chalti rahe
khushi mile ya gham, 
badlenge naa hum duniya chahe badalti rahe....

today i m very very very happy...becoz one of my dreams comes true...yiipppiieeee.....:-)

lessons i learned from my life....

well! i am anu....i used to lead simple nd happy lyf with my family nd friends....used to enjy every moment of lyf with lots of drmz......nd with sum silly adventures nd masti....but lyf is not as simple as i used to think it is....it has lots of shocking u-turns which can change ur whole lyf....for exmple in my lyf.....i got the biggest shocking u-turn when i lost my dad....he was used to be my best friend, my best teacher..nd my IDOL..but i lost all of them..its going to be almost one year i suffered the lost...but still i can feel him....now i m facing the reality of this cruel world....i hav faced the change in people in ur bad tyms....the people who used to laugh with u in ur happiness...happy tyms....its not necessary they will cry with u in ur bad tyms....i hav learned that in our bad tyms we hav to face all the problems alone..but this journey can be easy if you have the support of true friends which i used to call MY ANGELS....now, for me my whole world is my family nd my friends..rest i don't care about anyone....
ohh i forgot to tell that y i hav created my blog....actualy i want to follow one of my friend's(ANGEL) blog..JAI..:-)