hii!! today i want to share my drmzz...my feelings....i hav posted before that in my lyf there are many problems....but i never stop dreaming....many people use to give up their drmzz when they face problem in their lyf......but u can't count me in these type of guys....as i posted earlier that i lost my dad....but yet i love to see drmzz....i want to live those drmzz....i always use to keep smiling....nd still i use to live my lyf as before....
mujhe bhut se log kehte hai ki mujhe apne dad ke jaane se koi farak nai pdta.....kyuki mein apni lyf pehle jaise hi jee rhi hu....but unhe mein kaise samjhau ki mein kya mehsus krti hu.....mujhe bhi takleef hoti hai..aap khud socho mujhe kaisa feel hota hoga jab sham ko mein gate open krte waqt ye sochti hu papa a gye..but unki jagah roj mera bhai hota hai....jaha mein roj papa ke sath kitchen mein new new dishes try krti thi....pr ab wahi dishes mein akeli bnati hu.....jab mummy mujhe dant te the wo mujhe bachate the....har sunday ko wo hamare sath subh subh chai(tea) peete the sirf hamara sath dene ke liye..vaise unhe chai(tea) bilkul psand nai thi.....aur bhi bhut si batein hai...roj raat ko sath mein dinner krna.....unka humein hasate rehna....mummy papa ki pyaar wali fight mein mera papa ki side lena.....sb kuch.....but unke jaane se ye choti choti khushiyan bhi chali gyi....reh gya to bs ek ajeeb sa sunapan........pehle jab kbhi mom dad out of station jaate the...mera brother mere sath rehta tha..me ,my brother nd my darling frnd preeti...hum bhut masti krte the...but ab mujhe bhut ajeeb lgta hai ghr pe akele rehna...kyuki ab mom ke sath ravi(my brother) out of station jaata hai.....aur mein akeli ghr pe reh jaati hu......bhut akelapan sa lgta hai mujhe....preeti(my frnd) mere sath rehti hai..hum abhi bhi bhut masti krte hai...pr kahi na kahi mere dil mein wo akelapan sa rehta hai....ab ye sb cheeje mein un logo ko kaise samjhau.....kya rone se....ya hamesha chup rehne se..mere dad vapis a jayenge....nahi na....fir wo log kyu nai samajhte....agr mein hi roti rhungi to mere mom ..mera bhai....kya sambhalenge khud ko..hum teeno ab ek dusre ke liye hi to khush rehte hai....wo kehte hai na is duniya mein apne liye koi nai jeeta ..har koi apno ke liye jeeta hai.....ye sab bhi to dad ka hi seekhaya hua hai...ki lyf mein kuch bhi ho jaye..jeena mat chodo.....aj nai to kal har kisi ko jana hai...pr koi jeena to nai chod deta....aur mere jaise log to bilkul nai ...mere dad chahte the mein hmesha khush rhu....to mein unhi ka to sapna pura kr rhi hu....agr wo hote to mera hr ek drm pura krte...agar mein ab wo drmzz khud pure kr rhi hu..to wats the big deal yar....mera ye msg un logo ke liye hai jo ye sochte hai ki kisi ke jaane ke baad humein apne sapne...apni khwahishein chod deni chahiye...but y....??
mujhe bhut se log kehte hai ki mujhe apne dad ke jaane se koi farak nai pdta.....kyuki mein apni lyf pehle jaise hi jee rhi hu....but unhe mein kaise samjhau ki mein kya mehsus krti hu.....mujhe bhi takleef hoti hai..aap khud socho mujhe kaisa feel hota hoga jab sham ko mein gate open krte waqt ye sochti hu papa a gye..but unki jagah roj mera bhai hota hai....jaha mein roj papa ke sath kitchen mein new new dishes try krti thi....pr ab wahi dishes mein akeli bnati hu.....jab mummy mujhe dant te the wo mujhe bachate the....har sunday ko wo hamare sath subh subh chai(tea) peete the sirf hamara sath dene ke liye..vaise unhe chai(tea) bilkul psand nai thi.....aur bhi bhut si batein hai...roj raat ko sath mein dinner krna.....unka humein hasate rehna....mummy papa ki pyaar wali fight mein mera papa ki side lena.....sb kuch.....but unke jaane se ye choti choti khushiyan bhi chali gyi....reh gya to bs ek ajeeb sa sunapan........pehle jab kbhi mom dad out of station jaate the...mera brother mere sath rehta tha..me ,my brother nd my darling frnd preeti...hum bhut masti krte the...but ab mujhe bhut ajeeb lgta hai ghr pe akele rehna...kyuki ab mom ke sath ravi(my brother) out of station jaata hai.....aur mein akeli ghr pe reh jaati hu......bhut akelapan sa lgta hai mujhe....preeti(my frnd) mere sath rehti hai..hum abhi bhi bhut masti krte hai...pr kahi na kahi mere dil mein wo akelapan sa rehta hai....ab ye sb cheeje mein un logo ko kaise samjhau.....kya rone se....ya hamesha chup rehne se..mere dad vapis a jayenge....nahi na....fir wo log kyu nai samajhte....agr mein hi roti rhungi to mere mom ..mera bhai....kya sambhalenge khud ko..hum teeno ab ek dusre ke liye hi to khush rehte hai....wo kehte hai na is duniya mein apne liye koi nai jeeta ..har koi apno ke liye jeeta hai.....ye sab bhi to dad ka hi seekhaya hua hai...ki lyf mein kuch bhi ho jaye..jeena mat chodo.....aj nai to kal har kisi ko jana hai...pr koi jeena to nai chod deta....aur mere jaise log to bilkul nai ...mere dad chahte the mein hmesha khush rhu....to mein unhi ka to sapna pura kr rhi hu....agr wo hote to mera hr ek drm pura krte...agar mein ab wo drmzz khud pure kr rhi hu..to wats the big deal yar....mera ye msg un logo ke liye hai jo ye sochte hai ki kisi ke jaane ke baad humein apne sapne...apni khwahishein chod deni chahiye...but y....??
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